Once again, I’m going to start with the last picture of the prior painting blog. This is where I was at when I started “fixing” the nebula. I almost stopped here, but I felt like the colors were too soft now.
Black needed added in.
I knew I needed to make the color more dramatic. It just felt too soft and everything blended without a draw for the eyes. So I intensified the hues with another layer. If you look carefully at the next picture, you can also see the splattering of stars.
Time for the final stars and highlights on several of them. There are 7 glittering stars in that sky created by the dreams of a tree.
Honestly, I never expected the nebula to give the problems that it did. I thought I had this.
Okay, here is the last picture from the last blog so you can recall what it looked like.
Here I blended the colors together. Oh, and I also added the sparkles to the tree which I wanted.
So I thought it was all well at this point. I just needed to add in some dark spots.
That was when I realized I had a mess. Giving the top a moment to dry, I filled in the ground beneath the tree. I wasn’t certain that I even wanted ground, but after I got it in, I decided that it had been the right thing to do.
I had the thought at this point that I wanted the nebula to reflect the colors of the tree. I went back to some reference pictures of nebulae and tried to decide what I wanted to do. Here’s what came about:
I’m going to leave this blog here for now. I’ll post the final on Saturday. As I will be out at the Jerome Music Booster craft show from 9 a.m. to 6 p.m., you can come see the real deal there.
At first, it was a relief not to do the weekly progress blogs. I could put the words to my story instead. I was kind of glad that I had released myself from that self-imposed obligation.
Then, over the last couple of weeks, I’ve been missing them. Not doing them weekly, but the chat I had here. It was a time when I could talk to myself about what had gone on — granted, a very public chat, like talking to yourself while walking down the street. *grin*
I decided I would like to resume it, but on a monthly schedule. I hope you will like that too.
March has been busy. I’ve spent a lot of time at work, more than normal, which has taken me from my business. I can’t wait to get back to my usual routine there too. The weather has been good on a few weekends, so I’ve gotten some yard work done. Feels weird to be getting to it before May. Right now, I’m sitting outside in the sunlight with my dogs. It’s good as long as someone doesn’t come along walking their dog. Merlin doesn’t handle people or dogs (or anything not part of “the pack” very well). I’ve also been doing some work with vibration toned music in order to increase my energy (because I found that sunlight wasn’t doing enough as it usually does to brighten my spirits). I will say that I’m very glad I decided to give it a try. Normally I’d be all like, “Yes, everything is energy and vibration is nothing but a waveform energy. I don’t think different frequencies is going to help at all.” Let me just say that it does. I am feeling much better, much more relaxed and vibrant. I’ve also gotten back to meditation. All while getting words done.
Unfortunately, I haven’t been spending very much time with audio. I’m lucky if I get 10-15 minutes a day in, but I’ll take the baby steps.
I also haven’t gotten any painting or drawing done lately. Not for lack of trying here. I am back to arguing with myself about it. Long story short, I’d be better off if I’d just admit to myself that I don’t feel like drawing or painting at the moment and go and edit a story. Instead, I just waste time. Not minutes either. Like hours! It’s very frustrating. And I know the way out of it is action. Which only makes me angry at myself because I know just what needs to be done and I’m not doing any of it, or getting anything accomplished. The achiever in me hates that!
I need to take a moment and plan out my business for the next quarter, but that hasn’t happened yet. I’m wondering if I should go monthly with my planning as well. I haven’t made a decision about that yet either. This is one thing I know I need to do with thoughtfulness, not from the low-energy state where I’ve been. It’s best for me to wait for now.
Let’s look at the numbers, shall we?
Daily word goal reached for 233 days! Weekly word goal reached for 36 weeks.
Writing for the month of March: 24,635 words
Writing year to date total: 73,375 words
Drawing/painting for March: a few sketches – nothing to write home about.
Audio: About 8 and 1/2 hours recording and editing audio. I have lots of chapters started on editing, but I keep discovering lines that haven’t been recorded. Haven’t had time to get in the booth and get the missing lines recorded. Soon!
Let me start by saying that I’m trying an experiment and moving the free fiction to Friday. I want to see if it has better results there. (catch last week’s now) Not going to lie. This is all about the exposure. Me running the free fiction does no good if only a few people are reading it. I want more eyes on it.
If you were looking for my progress blog that I usually run on Monday and didn’t see it, you’re not imagining things. I didn’t run it. I had originally thought that it would be a way of me being publicly accountable, and I still like that idea, but I’m not sure anyone really cares. I thought someone might be interested in seeing how all gets done in my life and the incremental baby steps it takes. I had hoped that it would inspire others. Instead, I feel as if it didn’t have the intended effect. I also didn’t come back to review it like I thought I would.
Feeling like no one really cared culminated with other factors (cold, snow, gray skies, working many hours, little sleep, and a desperate need for sunshine) into a massive depression for me. Massive.
I don’t like talking about my depression or admitting that I have it. I’ve seen others with depression and mine is very mild comparatively. Usually I can resolve mine by getting more sleep. Not this time. I had the stupid little voices working away in my head and they wouldn’t leave me be. I began to feel destructive. Worse, I couldn’t cry. I felt as if I could vent with tears, things might be okay.
I had a good trip going and coming from Utah last week. Had some blowing snow across the road, but for the most part it was clear and dry.
Wizarding Dayz was a very family-friendly show. I did a lot of networking, met some great people, and got a cartoon done courtesy of Alex Lee Buie.
That dang dimple in my chin!
I met several writers I didn’t know before and look forward to getting to know them and their work better.
Wizarding Dayz is very Harry Potter themed, and I caught a couple wizards walking around.
Oh, and here was a shot of my booth:
I also found a stowaway among my books. Bob joined the adventure. Here he is here hiding behind Loki’s chair.
See his happy little grin? He was so pleased with himself. Just about as much as when he crashed my “vacation” when I went to a writers’ conference in Oregon. He’s such a freeloader! *grin*
At least it was only Kevin and myself going out for Chinese food at Chin Wah.
We also had dinner one night at Los Cucos, but I didn’t get any fantastic pictures of the food. Bummer. It was good. We were hungry.
I surprised myself and got my words done each day. On Friday I managed to get most of them in during the show; there just wasn’t a whole lot of traffic, so I used my time. I always figure that the fastest way to make people come up to my booth is to start to write. I get immersed and *poof* people come and pulling me out of it. Murphy’s Law. *grin* It’s just one of the many ways I hack the universe.
Earlier in the week, I finished editing Tangled Magic and got it to my reader. Yeah. I also got back on track with the audio, but I’m still not sure there’s not some I will have to throw out and re-record. I’m experimenting at this point.
As I’m writing this, I haven’t got any painting done yet, but I hope to change that soon. I want to get started on a new painting tonight (Sunday). There probably won’t be any new painting listed in my numbers below, unless I decide to do something small, but I really want to get to work on another large painting. We’ll see what I really do when I step up to the easel. I’m thinking about Mexican leftovers first.