Nebula on a hexagon

My six-sided painting. I was pretty excited to find this canvas. I knew immediately that I wanted to do a space painting on this. Once I felt ready, I painted the canvas black. The picture above shows it all prepared and ready.

My first layer:

It’s hard not to block a painting in like this and not absolutely hate it and fear that it’s been messed up. But, the painting must continue.

Here’s the next layer:

Now we’re getting some of the misty cloudiness into the piece.

In the next layer, the stars start to shine:

More layers come next, more stars, and adding some of the black of space back in. Finally we end up with this:

There was a point at which I really messed everything up. I didn’t grab my phone to take a picture though; I knew my paint was drying quickly. That probably returned the fun to this painting. I’d started to take it too seriously and quit having fun with it. In causing a catastrophe on the canvas and knowing I had little time to fix it, I had to attack it with courage and release everything. Believe me, at the time I really wasn’t sure I’d be saving it. It was extremely hard to release the fear. Words make it sound so easy, but at the time it was horrible. I instantly projected myself into the future where I had to paint the canvas black once more to restart and regretted the past where I wished I hadn’t touched it so much. I was everywhere but the present.

Grounding yourself with courage puts you firmly in the moment. There’s an obstacle that must be overcome and only by stepping forward can this obstacle be hurdled.

This painting could have easily gone the other way where I did have to go through the future of repainting it that I had imagined. However, I’m glad I kept working it and gave myself the chance.

As my friend, J.D. Estrada, said a few days ago on an Instagram post, “Self doubt is an option, but so is believing in yourself.”

This weekend, believe in yourself.

Happy adventuring!

Progress – December 3, 2018

I’m going to call this prior week the “hard-won week.”

Adventures didn’t go well and it seemed like a struggle to get my daily words in. Each day I barely eked in the words. Life itself was trying to kick me and keep me down. Even getting my daily exercise in seemed to be a challenge. It was definitely strange.

The Jerome Craft and Gift Show over the weekend did go well. I met lots of cool new people. Got some great coffee and continued my own holiday shopping. I think it surprises people to discover that there is a prolific writer and artist living in their very town. Some people do know my kids, but I’m sure there’s a good number of people that think that I’m a recluse. Truth: I’m busy working full-time and building my writing and art on the side. I don’t have the extra time I wish I did to get out into the community. I do hope that changes someday. So, it’s a shock when they realize that someone with so many books lives in Jerome. Also truth: there are several writers in the area who have written and published multiple books.

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One of my paintings, the lotus painting, got a tear in the canvas. I told you it wasn’t a very good week. Adrian was carrying it out after the show and slipped on the ice. He dropped what he was carrying and a box went right through the canvas. It’s a clean tear, so I think it’ll be easy to repair. Adrian wasn’t hurt, he just slid and didn’t fall. It is the second canvas that he’s injured though. Yes, I’m counting. *grin* Oh well. I’ve been looking at the painting over the last year and thinking about how I wanted to retouch a few things. This is now my opportunity. What am I going to do? Ruin it?

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Are you wasting your time?

“Every day’s a gift and not a given right.” –from If Today Was Your Last Day by Nickelback

I love being creative. I am nearly always focused on the creative outlets in my life. I try new endeavors all the time. As a result, I always have people telling me that I’m so talented and they wish they could be as creative.

I don’t believe that “creativity” is limited to the traditional arts. Any time I see someone with a business who’s ideas and values are outside the norm of their industry, they are being creative. The way some people cook or garden can be very creative — it’s certainly not a talent I have. So, as you’re reading this, please realize that I’m when I say to be creative, I mean that in which ever way your talents are uniquely wired — whatever gift you have been given, it is truly yours. No one can do what you do in the exact same way. I guarantee that you have at least two separate talents stemming from one creative aspect.

Let’s just dispel this myth of me being more creative than anyone else now. I merely follow my interests to see where they lead. If I think, “Oh, that might be fun to try,” or “Hmm, I wonder…” then I’m off skipping down the yellow brick road to see where it goes. Sometimes I turn around and come back having decided that I didn’t like that fork in the road. But I still tried it out.

I know so many talented people who do nothing but waste their time on things I find irrelevant. They make a choice to not be working on their talents, but rather to dally in some folly that will have no relevance 10 minutes after they’re done. Video games, Facebook applications (let’s go find an egg and hatch it together!), stupid tv shows, hanging out at the bar, etc. These things might be great for unwinding and recharging your batteries, but they are not meant to have hours and hours spent on them at a time.

What’s holding you back as a creative person? Fear of success, fear of failure, fear of a project too big that it’s overwhelming. Where are you spending your time that you know it’s not best spent? When you understand the answer to these two questions, you’ll start to break free of the cycle because you can ask yourself one simple question: Do I want to reach my creative goals before I die or not? If you don’t, go ahead, waste your life away. But if you do want to reach your creative goals, don’t let anything stop you. Get the song that I mentioned at the top of the blog and play it often to remind you. Remember, you decide your choices and you are the one responsible for the end result. Don’t just coast through life – live every moment on purpose.