While I was at FanX, I had someone (Cody) ask if I could say a few words for a podcast for creative entrepreneurs. I laughed as I asked him if he’d read my blog; why sure, I can say a few words! I’ve been cheerleading the creative entrepreneur for years.
Then, of course, the instant fear set in. What would I say? I’m a writer, not a speaker.
It took me a good moment to settle down and get my act together. Then, as Cody and I talked, I was fine as long as I kept my eyes focused on his face. If I looked toward the phone he held to record us, well, things didn’t feel too good.
I probably should have written this during the morning when I was all pumped up and ecstatic. I’m starting to feel that this is a Sunday routine for me where I start the day all excited and by the time I sit down to write this, I’m depressed as can be. Yes, honest moment there.
And yes, I often have to pick myself back up to write this blog.
There’s a big fly in my office and I wish it would die. I want it to get trapped in a spiderweb and become dinner for another species I don’t particularly like. Yeah, it’s that kind of depression day.
Maybe it’s the episode of Star Trek: TNG that I had on a little while ago. Maybe it’s just a cycle that I go through. Maybe I feel that I’m not as productive on Sundays as I wish I were and I imagine myself being during the rest of the week. Maybe it’s the story I’m writing that now has me emotionally tapped. Maybe I intuitively feel that I’m not doing something right in my life and this is when it tries to surface. Maybe I need more time off to recharge. Maybe I see all that needs to get done that I haven’t gotten to. Maybe I feel like this is a record of what I got done while I let other things in my life go by the wayside knowing I should be tackling these tasks too.
Yeah, this is how I feel on Sunday evenings.
I want to thank all of you who supported the audiobook version of Quest for the Three Books after it came out last week. Thank you! I was absolutely amazed at the response.
I did finish the audio for I’m with Cupid and I’ve started recording For Sale, Call Loki, so I’ll be editing that starting this week. I’m with Cupid ended up being very short — of course, it is a short story — and comes in just under 28 minutes long.
I’m making the change from recording and doing preliminary edits in Audacity to working completely in Adobe Audition. That’s been a little bit of a learning curve, but not too bad since I’ve been editing and mastering with Audition for several months now. I’m excited about the possibilities this brings me, even though it’s a complete reworking of my process.
Every single time I think I’m nearing the end of this novel, I realize that there is more that I need to do. It’s getting long and once again I am contemplating breaking it into shorter novels. I’ve been toying with the idea of Onesong: Days of Abilities (or Power, or Awakening) and Onesong: Nights of Magic as parts 1 and 2. I don’t know yet though. The second one sounds very romance-y, which I don’t want. Or I might just let it ride as one story. Really haven’t decided.
I have time though, for now. I’m still fleshing out the timeline of the story.