Nebula on a hexagon

My six-sided painting. I was pretty excited to find this canvas. I knew immediately that I wanted to do a space painting on this. Once I felt ready, I painted the canvas black. The picture above shows it all prepared and ready.

My first layer:

It’s hard not to block a painting in like this and not absolutely hate it and fear that it’s been messed up. But, the painting must continue.

Here’s the next layer:

Now we’re getting some of the misty cloudiness into the piece.

In the next layer, the stars start to shine:

More layers come next, more stars, and adding some of the black of space back in. Finally we end up with this:

There was a point at which I really messed everything up. I didn’t grab my phone to take a picture though; I knew my paint was drying quickly. That probably returned the fun to this painting. I’d started to take it too seriously and quit having fun with it. In causing a catastrophe on the canvas and knowing I had little time to fix it, I had to attack it with courage and release everything. Believe me, at the time I really wasn’t sure I’d be saving it. It was extremely hard to release the fear. Words make it sound so easy, but at the time it was horrible. I instantly projected myself into the future where I had to paint the canvas black once more to restart and regretted the past where I wished I hadn’t touched it so much. I was everywhere but the present.

Grounding yourself with courage puts you firmly in the moment. There’s an obstacle that must be overcome and only by stepping forward can this obstacle be hurdled.

This painting could have easily gone the other way where I did have to go through the future of repainting it that I had imagined. However, I’m glad I kept working it and gave myself the chance.

As my friend, J.D. Estrada, said a few days ago on an Instagram post, “Self doubt is an option, but so is believing in yourself.”

This weekend, believe in yourself.

Happy adventuring!

No rest for the wicked

No sleep for me this weekend either.

After doing the back-to-back shows of Salt Lake Gaming Con and Wizard World Boise, this weekend, my son is dragging me (most possibly literally) out for a 12 mile bike race/ride. At least he didn’t sign us up for the 100 miles — that may have awarded him with a smack upside the head. **grin**

I’m quite comfortable doing 7-9 miles, so I hope that 12 will be fine as long as I don’t get ahead of myself and try to push myself through the heat. I’m hoping that the day doesn’t get hot too fast.

Adrian can’t tell me how we return: “Maybe they will have a shuttle for the weak and the elderly. Which category do you fall into?” he asks with a huge grin. I return by sticking my tongue out at him. Yes, we have a real mature household here.

He’s been wanting to get me into cycle racing since before he got me a shiny new road bike to replace my mountain bike. Doesn’t he know that I’m dangerous with speed? The slowness of the mountain bike was to handicap my inner daredevil, not that I could be stopped from jumping off curbs and making mad dashes through mud puddles and such. Yeah, there are just some things a 40+ year old woman should not be doing.

Me with my bike.

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Hmmm, I wonder if that’s a severely limiting belief.

Then I recall the gaggle of junior high girls that weren’t paying attention when they were skating and we all tangled. I ended up on the floor, looking up into several scared sets of young eyes, and thinking that I had to get up off the floor before they started thinking that they had killed the old lady.

Yeah, really hoping this bike race doesn’t end up like that.

At any rate, I figure between the exertion and the heat, I am going to be one tuckered little cyclist by the time I get home. Pretty sure nothing will get done after that.

Maybe Sunday I can get back on schedule.

Until Adrian announces that he wants to go work out at the gym and drags me there for 3 hours (no joke).

Now do you see why I like to go dimension hopping? Time to slip through the page to another world again.

Have a great weekend. Send me good thoughts to get through the day, would you? Thanks!