My six-sided painting. I was pretty excited to find this canvas. I knew immediately that I wanted to do a space painting on this. Once I felt ready, I painted the canvas black. The picture above shows it all prepared and ready.
My first layer:
It’s hard not to block a painting in like this and not absolutely hate it and fear that it’s been messed up. But, the painting must continue.
Here’s the next layer:
Now we’re getting some of the misty cloudiness into the piece.
In the next layer, the stars start to shine:
More layers come next, more stars, and adding some of the black of space back in. Finally we end up with this:
There was a point at which I really messed everything up. I didn’t grab my phone to take a picture though; I knew my paint was drying quickly. That probably returned the fun to this painting. I’d started to take it too seriously and quit having fun with it. In causing a catastrophe on the canvas and knowing I had little time to fix it, I had to attack it with courage and release everything. Believe me, at the time I really wasn’t sure I’d be saving it. It was extremely hard to release the fear. Words make it sound so easy, but at the time it was horrible. I instantly projected myself into the future where I had to paint the canvas black once more to restart and regretted the past where I wished I hadn’t touched it so much. I was everywhere but the present.
Grounding yourself with courage puts you firmly in the moment. There’s an obstacle that must be overcome and only by stepping forward can this obstacle be hurdled.
This painting could have easily gone the other way where I did have to go through the future of repainting it that I had imagined. However, I’m glad I kept working it and gave myself the chance.
As always, it’s been a madhouse here. But, wishing the hectic roller coaster would stop and let me off isn’t an option. I’ve signed up for the ride so I’m stuck until it comes to a full and complete stop. So I’m just trying to keep my hands and arms inside the vehicle until then.
I know I keep swearing that I’m going to get started with my eBay items again. And I am. I promise. Eventually. Please keep checking. It will happen. Let me know you’re looking and not finding anything and that will help to spur me. Of course, if you’re wanting something now, you can always go to my website and see what’s available. It’s hard right now though. I had a style I was working toward and had a lot of great comments on and good sales. However, it wasn’t something I could see myself doing for 60 years. So now I’m working on painting more traditional landscapes but I find myself stuck and able only to “paint by numbers.” Okay, so that’s an exaggeration, but it feels like it. I’m suddenly worried that I’ll never pull away from this student work and “find myself” again. So then I’m forcing myself to experiment, and let me tell you that’s working out so well– NOT! The level that my sarcasm has reached should tell you just how bad it is. Okay, I’m breathing now. I swear I’m just trying some things out, trying to adapt my old style with all the techniques I know now. It’s got me a little frazzled. Much like children that won’t go to sleep when they are told.
Here’s a piece that was finished a little while ago. More will be posted here as soon as I get them downloaded from my camera.
Oh yes, I’m still painting away. Not getting things done as quickly as I always hope I will. More like the turtle than the hare in this race. It doesn’t help that I’ve spent a large amount of time repainting canvases too. It seems like for every painting I finish, I start 3 over, hiding their atrocities under a thick layer of gesso. But compared to photography, I’m doing well — there it’s for every 1 picture I keep, I have 50 more in the back files never to be seen. It’s all relative!